10 on Tuesday.. yep it's random...

Time for another "Ten on Tuesday" so head over to Linny's Vault and share a bunch of random crap about yourself :)


{One}
Cardinals lost which means no World Series for St. Louis. And they not only lost but they lost bad. It hurts to think of baseball right now.

Is this dramatic?

No, because my f*cking team lost. Let me sulk.

{Two}
I do think it's pretty badass though that Matheny got us to the NLCS in his FIRST year as a baseball manager and this is especially without Pujols and Duncan and Berkman. My team is still pretty awesome even if we did get out asses handed to us.

{Three}

Have I mentioned how much I love Fall?

{Four}

I've mentioned before I'm seeing a pretty amazing guy right now... nothing exclusive. Just dating at this point.... anyway, I have a date with him tonight.

Suddenly, I'm 16 again.

Man... I'm crushing hard... a little... okay a lot.

{Five}

I'm not really into scary movies but I've reaaly been wanting to watch one lately. Any reccomendations of any new releases?

{Six}

My brother-in-law's father is in the hospital and underwent a triple bypass surgery. He and his "girlfriend" of over 20 years got married in the hospital before his surgery.

{Seven}
So, I'm gonna be bipolar right now...

So far I've complained of how fast time is going and how I want it to slow down because I'm not ready for my college career to be over...

Yeah... let it be over. I'm so SICK of homework. I have no time for it. I'm ready for the real world where work is work and home is home.

I love you senior year... but you must end the homework.

{Eight}
Jason Aldean's new album is not as great as his old stuff but I'm still enjoying it. Although... I don't quite get why there's a song about a hooker on there....

{Nine}
I love sitting in a Psychology lecture and being able to diagnose people in my life with different disorders... bahaha. Gotta love it.

{Ten}
I don't say this enough but I friggin love Lin. Seriously if you aren't following her, do it. She always comments on blogs and reads what you post AND she's just plai n awesome :)

Until next time loves!

Just Popping In

Tsk Tsk...

I haven't blogged since Tuesday. But can ya blame me? Working, school, and well... lif is pretty hectic.

Anywho just wanted to drop by for a quck hello.

Today I took my senior pictures... my last school photo EVER.

It definitely has not sunk in that I am a SENIOR and this is going to be over in 7 months, I can't even fathom it.

And next week, I register for the last time ever and as I'm picking out my classes, I realize how many I still want to take. It's not fair.

But, I am ready to be done. I'm ready for no more homework and a real, grown up job. I'm ready to start the next chapter of my life even if I'm not completely ready to end this one.

But it's okay.

Also, HOW ABOUT THOSE CARDINALS!!!??

One more win.... 12 in 12.

Welp, there's my little update.

Have a FANTASTIC weekend everyone. I will be working... yaaaay.

-Melly Nel

10 on Tuesday and Eight Fears =]

Hello lovelies!

It is such a beautiful day here in Southern Indiana. The sky is super blue and the leaves are changing... it is just amazing.

Even more amazing is Linny's Vault 10 on Tuesday so let's do it!

{One}

Jason Aldean's new album is out today. Who cares if he cheated on his wife... NEW MUSIC!!! (Yep, I'm going to hell.

{Two}

What was with the Cards last night?? Uh, hello? Did we forget how to bat or catch or run or, ya know play baseball? Hopefully they will play better tomorrow....

{Three}

David Freese. Those two words can evoke instant orgasms.

{Four}

I got two days off from work and it is AHHHHHMAZING!

{Five}

Do any of ya'll have Thorntons gas stations? If you do, try their Bananas Fosters coffee, Seriously, it is heaven on your taste buds.

{Six}

I finally went and bought a few new clothes. A shirt from Old Navy and two other shirts from Maurice's



I wore the shirt from Old Navy yesterday

{Seven}
Getting back into the dating world is weird. I feel like a writing major in a quantum physics class.

{Eight}
Who is going to see Luke Bryan in concert in January... uhhh this girl!

{Nine}
Senior pictures on Friday and I have no idea what to wear... problem? Maybe.

{Ten}
My last time registering for classes ever happens next week. It makes me want to cry. Where is my time going????

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All right, time for my eight fears...

1. Death. Yes I know this is silly. But it's more the fear of being forgotten and not making the most of my time here that scares me.

2. Failure. I am so scared of failing at what I want to do.

3. Closed Spaces. Yep, I'm claustrophobic.

4. The dark. It kinda ties in with the being claustrophobic because it makes me feel closed in.

5. I don't know what to call this one, but I fear living a life without love, a.k.a dying alone with too many cats I guess. I just can't imagine never being married. Not because I think everyone should, but because that's personally what I want in my own life.

6. Politics. Have you seen these people running our government?? Yeah, it's pretty scary.

7. People I love dying. Once again, it'll only become more inevitable the older I get, that doesn't mean I have to like it.

8. My writing being crap. Nothing scares me more than finishing a novel and having someone read it only to say it's horrible.

Welp, there's my blogging for today. Until next time America... err I mean Bloggers!



When I Was 17 & Nine Loves

Today I am linking up with From Mrs. to Mama for Show & Tell!



This week's topic is "When I Was 17..."

Okay so when I first saw the topic the first thing I thought of Mandy Moore's song 17, ya know from her super pop days.

Anywhoo.... on to the questions!

Let me just start by saying I LOVED when I was 17. It was one of my favorite ages.

1. When you were 17, tell us what kind of car you drove, where you worked, and what you were usually up to on the weekends?

I didn't have a car (still don't). I was super involved in school so my life was spent doing a lot of volunteering and peer mentoring and artsy stuff... yeah I was school nerd. My parents were really strict so on the weekends I basically just hung out with my family and did homework. Yep, I sound super lame.


2. Show us a picture of you when you were 17 {roughly}.

Not the best picture, but it's me holding my niece ON my 17th birthday

3. When you were 17, tell us what you wanted to be when you "grew up."

I was just transistioning out of my "artist" phase and deciding I wanted to be a writer.


4. When you were 17, tell us the kind of boys that you dated. Did you have a type? Do you have a relationship you remember well? Tell us about it.

Like I said my parents were strict... so I didn't really date. So I didn't really have a type. I started dating my ex-fiance when I was 17 though. I remember it pretty well because he was my first love and well, things were really good at that age. Obviously he's my ex now because as we matured it just wasn't working. But being 17 and in love with no worries was amazing.


5. When you were 17, tell us where you pictured your life 10 years from then. Did it turn out the way you expected it to?

Well I'm still within the ten years, but I saw myself having a college degree, writing and married, hopefully planning on or already having kids. So far I'm doing good. When I'm 27 ask me if I've got the career, marriage, and kids down ;)

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Now it's time for my nine loves!

So, besides my family, friends, and furbaby.... here's what I love.

{One}
Fall. It is my favorite season and October is my favorite month. My future husband doesn't know it yet but he's marrying me in October lol. I have such a deep love for fall, it's ridiculous.

{Two}
Rivers. I grew up on a river, my college town is on a river... I just love the river and spending time on it.

{Three}
Country music. I grew up listening to old rock and went through a pretty heavy rock phase but then I moved in with my roommate and it changed. Country has been my most listened to genre for quite sometime.

{Four}
Rain. I love listening to it. It inspires me to be creative.

{Five}
Coffee. It's my drug.

{Six}
BASEBALL! I am like the biggest Cardinals fan you could ever meet. Seriously. I love for baseball season.

{Seven}
Road trips. Nothing is better than friends, music, and open road.

{Eight}
How I Met Your Mother... but you all knew that :)

{Nine}
Myself. It took me a long time to get to this point but I can say I love myself and that's the greatest love you could ever have <3>



Blogger Confession and Ten Secrets

Hello blogging beauties! Yeah, I've neglected my blog for a week, but I really needed the time away.

I made one of the biggest blogging mistakes in the world... I got caught up in striving for followers. I starte running my blog the way I though READERS would want to see it instead of how I wanted it to be run. All the link ups just got too much and my blog lost the one thing that made it the strongest... ME. So, I am going to start blogging the way I want. If I want to do a link up, I will. If I want to get personal I will.

As a writer, I strive for my stuff to be seen and I wanted my blog to be noticed by more people. But honestly, I love the 28 people who follow me. And it may seem like a small number in the blogging world but who cares. This is MY blog and it should be about me. The End.

Now, on to something fun!


I've been seeing this challenge and it looks super fun sooo I'm starting it!

{Ten Secrets}

{One}
When I was younger, I sucked on a blanket waaaay longer than was age appropriate.

{Two}
I can't sleep with my feet covered. It drives me crazy.

{Three}
I miss my high school best friend and I don't think she really pays much attention to me anymore. But she's still one of my best friends even though we don't really talk anymore.

{Four}
I'm kinda starting to fall for this guy I've been hanging out with/going oput on dates with since September. He's pretty amazing. I'll share more details as (or if) this story progresses.

{Five}
I feel out of place EVERYWHERE. I really haven't found a place where I "fit in"

{Six}
I envy my married friends with kids.

{Seven}
I still love 90's pop music as if it were still the 90's.

{Eight}
I still cry at certain Disney movies.

{Nine}
Nicholas Sparks novels are my guilty, dirty pleasure.

{Ten}
I haven't written or worked on a novel or story on my own (not school enforced) in soo long, it scares me to try.

There ya go! Have a good weekend!!

Friday Letters

Dear Midterms, I hate you. Like with a passion.

Dear Work, I love that you allow me to afford my awesome apartment and food and all, but I don't need you sucking up every ounce of free time I possess.

Dear October, I'm glad you're here and I hope you bring me amazing things over the next few weeks.

Dear Family, I'm sorry the aforementioned work is keeping me here instead of letting me go to St. Louis. I miss you all like crazy.

Dear beautiful cousin, Congrats on finding out you're having a girl! I can't wait to spoil her.

Dear Fat, GO AWAY. I hate you.

Dear junk food, Stop making me fat.

Dear Friday, you're letting me down.

I'll Whine If I Want To

Yes, I'm going to write a whiny post complaining about my life that is actually pretty great but I'm feeling very annoyed.

It's my blog, I'll whine if I want to...

Anyway,

I don't know how I feel about blogging lately... oh wait... yes I do.

DISCOURAGED.

Why, you may ask..

Well I feel like all I ever do is link ups and I don't really talk about me or my life anymore. BUT it's the link ups that seem to get anyone's attention.

How come when I write a personla post, noooooooone comments??? It's frustrating. Isn't it the personal posts that let people connect with you? Or was I wrong?

Am I just doing something wrong? I need feedback!

And then, I have my first giveaway, which I am about to delete because NO ONE is entering in it or commenting or showing any interest AT ALL.

So someone can have a giveaway for a stupid plastic gift card and some ad space and people come running? But when someone has a giveaway for something that actually BENEFITS YOU AND SOMEONE ELSE no one shows any interest? Really? I love the blogging community but that really dissapoints me. Are we so wrapped up in clothes and ad space that we can't take time to do something that will benefit a good cause??

Like, WTF is going on!?

I write because I love it. It is my passion. It is my life. I run this blog because I love sharing my life but what's the point of sharing it here if no one is going to show any interest?

I can write in my journal and get the same kinda connection. I've gained followers yes, and its not even about the number of followers I have. I just want people to friggin connect and comment. I am not a no-reply blogger. I talk to people. I'm not scary and I don't bite. I don't even get bad comments. At least bash my blog if you aren't going to respond to it.

OK.... rant over.



I hope everyone is having a better Wednesday than me lol