Random Things My Best Friend May Not Even Know

I wanted to write a fun entry today because I'm in a pretty good mood so I thought this would be fun. Here is a list of random things about me that people (even those close to me) may not know:

• My default ringtone (for now) is "I Don't Wanna Be" by Gavin Degraw. Special people get special ringtones like my parents are "The House That Built Me" by Miranda Lambert, my Grandma is "Dirt Road Anthem" by Jason Aldean, and my sis is " Savior" by Rise Against.


• Someday, maybe after I retire, I want to start my own animal rescue.


• My favorite colors are pink, purple, and yellow.


• I may be a writing major who reads a lot of Literature but I really love Nicholas Sparks (Don't judge!)


• I am 21 and still can't type without looking at the keyboard.


• I am a river city brat- every city I've spent major parts of my life in have been on rivers.


• I've never been out of the midwest.


• I'm a picky eater.


• In the summer, I get a little obsessed with buying popsicles.


• I hate buying clothes for myself.


• It takes me forever to do math in my head and I still count on my fingers.


• I still listen to 90's pop music regularly


• I can't fall asleep if my feet are covered.


• I actually keep every card I get and keep them in a huge box.


• I reorganize things constantly because I get bored with things if i don't


• I can't think clearly if my apartment is messy


• My favorite age was 17


• Semi trucks scare me


• I am claustraphobic.


• I grew up listening to classic rock like Bob Seger and Pat Benetar, spent my pre-teen years with Britney Spears and Hilary Duff, teen years with Bullet For my Valentine and Three Days Grace, and since I've been to college Jason Aldean, Tim McGraw, and Carrie Underwood. Needless to say, my iTunes have variety.


• I was in a band called "Lil' Angels" in elementary and middle school lol.


• Barbies were my favorite toys as a kid.


• My perfect sundays are rainy ones.


• I actually really love school and a life without homework and classes scares me a little.


• Sunflowers and Pink Roses are my favorite.


• My favorite month is October.


• I've NEVER been stung by a bee.


• My grandpa's house used to be pink. (It's an ugly beige color now lol)


• I love grass.


• As far as I know, I don't have any allergies.


• I used to write a lot of poetry and song lyrics.


• I really want to learn how to play piano.


• My favorite scent is coffee and vanilla because it reminds me of my mom and grandma's house.


• The only bone I've broken is my pinky finger.


• If I could, I would love to be a stay at home mom who writes novels.


• My ideal house is yellow.

I could keep listing random stuff but I'm sure you've had enough of me lol Have a great day everyone! <3

R.I.P Miss Negative

So, the girl who wrote that post yesterday? I beat her to death so she no longer exists.
Okay, so I'm not that extreme but little miss negative pants is gone. Why? Let me explain...
One of the goals I set for my 21st birthday was to rid my life of all toxic people. Miss Negative IS a toxic person so it is time to say good bye to her for good.
Seriously, Miss negative is that bitch that is always talking crap about you behind your back underlying everything you try to accomplish. Why should I let that big bitch win?
It's time to take Miss Negative behind the playground and beat her ass for all the crap she's been talking about me. So that's it. Miss Negative is out of my life.
Because I CAN do anything I set my mind to. I am awesome no matter who sees it or doesn't see it. I am my own motivator. I will get that A, lost that stubborn pound, work my butt off to get that job and so on.
I am not the little wallflower avoiding the world anymore. I LIVE IN THIS WORLD TOO therefore I have a say in how I let it affect me.
So goodbye Miss Negative, and hello (re)newed state of mind!

There Will Be An Answer, Let It Be

Hey everyone!
I hope you all like the new look. I may still fiddle around with it, but I think for the most part I like my new blog look.
Classes have kept me fairly busy since they started last week. Overall, I am really enjoying them. I am taking two psyc courses for my minor (Child & Adolescent psyc and Lifespan Development), two Lit courses to finish off the Lit portion required for my major (Shakespeare and 20th century Female Novelists), and a simple Adult Wellness course for a gen. ed. credit. I've actually been intersted in the work so homework has been as enjoyable as homework could possibly get.
Monday I started working out at the gym again. And let me tell you, it was AMAZING. I forgot what a great feeling it was to just burn off all the stress of life.
For the most part, life has been good. I'm back on track with school and taking care of my body and it's a great feeling. I love it.
It's reminded me how life has its ups and its downs but really you've just gotta roll with the punches and let it take its natural course. Yes, last year sucked. But I NEEDED it to wake me up and make myself question the choices I had been making. Everything that happened to me and because of me, happened for this very reason.
Each day, I still hope to find that magical purpose for myself but who said that search had to be confusing AND miserable. No one. it should be fun, exciting, and momentous. And I am going to enjoy every minute of it and do the best for myself that I can. Yes, I'm going to hit some obstacles. But what would life be without a few road blocks? I don't have all the answers now but they will come to me as I go.
And that's only half the fun ;)
I hope everyone is having a great week. Much love. <3

'Tis the Season for Change

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending." ~Maria Robinson

As the new year approaches I find myself paying more attention to my behaviors and reading entries from early this year. It amazes me how much has changed around me yet I'm still the same. Or at least I think I am.

In fact, I start to realize so many things I just dislike about myself. Maybe I'm too hard on myself, but there's just so many aspects in my life that I feel I can improve on. There are a lot of times I feel out of control (Yet, being a control freak is not a good thing so maybe I should let this go) and other times when I feel like my heart is in something but my head isn't meeting it half way. Then I get to thinking more and I see how much I take for granted sometimes.

Maybe everyone feels this way around this time of year because having a "new" year pproaching makes you think of all the things you can change. Like, I complain A LOT. I don't mean to do it, I just do. And I definitely take what I have for granted because I'm never happy with what I have. I always want something else. A lot of my friends can testify to this because it annoys the hell out of them.

I see what I want for myself and my future but I don't feel as if I'm on the right path there. And that needs to change. I'm proud of myself and my life... sometimes. That "sometimes" needs to become an "all the time." I need to start living life for me and appreciating the things I have instead of complaining. This day last year my mind was in a total different place. A week from this day I was a mess and saw some of the darkest days I've seen in my life. I'm not sure if I believe in God or anything for tha matter. That's an internal struggle I've always had with myself, but something decided the path I was on last year wasn't right and it turned my life upside down. I still feel a little turned around once in awhile and I feel as if this is my year to put things back into place.

When I look at the big picture I see that in 2 and a half years I will be out of school and the real world will be right there staring me in the face. How am I going to face up?

It's these years before then that are going to determine that and I don't want to waste them.

I want to improve my relationships with the people that mean the world to me and improve the relationship I have with myself. I want to make 2011 COUNT for something. And those are my intentions.

No more hoping or saying, I want to actually DO something. I've been lazy and let my life fall back into a new pattern, now it's time to LIVE that pattern. You have to greet change with more change and that's my motto of 2011.