Lately, I feel like I've been a little out of it. I mean, I'm concentrated on school and my weight loss and all that, which is going well by the way, BUT I feel like my head is somewhere else.
I'll admit, I'm a bit of a dreamer. I wouldn't be in college if I wasn't because I would have just accepted that life I left in St. Louis. I've always dreamed big things, mostly because it fills the hard days with hope for the good ones.
For some reason, although I don't really know where I'll be a year from now, I have the picture in my head of going to grad school, living in my own apartment, meeting some adorably geeky guy, and BAM, life.
Did I mention I'm a hopeless romantic too?
My upcoming senior year makes me feel like I'm in high school all over again except the stakes are higher. When I graduate with my writing degree, I get a chance at that fresh start again. I can go wherever and do whatever I want with my life. It's complete FREEDOM. And as scary as freedom and the real world can sometimes be, I feel completely liberated.
But the question is, what to do?
At this point, where I'm going after I graduate with my bachelor's is up in the air. I've thought about taking a year off to just focus on myself for awhile and spend time with family before enrolling in graduate school in 2014 for my Master's. I've thought about going straight into Graduate school to get my Master's in Writing or Library Science or ANYTHING, really. Go figure I pick a bachelor's degree that leaves so many possibilities open for a Master's. I've thought of going to school anywhere from Muncie, IN, St. Louis, Chicago, Indy, even allll the way to New York. Small town, big city, I can go anywhere.
I have been all over the place with what I truly want to do after I graduate and it's frightening and exciting all at the same time.
Who knows where I'll be a year from now. All I do know, is I want to be happy.
And that's not too far-fetched of a dream, right?
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